This ain't a scene

So there's that Fall Out Boy song "20 Dollar Nose Bleed"? It's totally a favorite of mine these days, just for the line "Have you ever wanted to disappear?", because seriously, it's a great line. And yes, Fall Out Boy I have wanted to disappear. Today is indeed one of those days. Congratulations you know how to relate to someone under 20 years old.

I really prefer not to complain about my problems, heck, I don't even tell my boyfriend whats bothering me half the time, I just don't want him to worry more than he already does. He doesn't need that type of stress, he has more than enough of it for both of us. But I mean, sometimes I guess you just need to get your feelings out in the open, and I guess that's what I'm doing here.

I think I would like to move out and get my own apartment or something right about now. It's just... family problems I guess. Don't get me wrong. My parents are two of the most wonderful people in the world, I believe, they would do anything they could to help me. I just get really disappointed when they pull out the double standards with my sister and I. They're acting like I'm the worst, and most ungrateful child in the world for staying out later than they used to when they were young. Last time I checked Mom and Dad you two were complaining I don't get out enough. Stop changing your minds like that please. Thanks.
I'm just so frustrated that my opinions and thoughts about things mean nothing to them, but my sixteen-year-old sister says one thing and they are bowing to her every whim.
I understand being a parent is hard, heck, I had to be a horrid child to raise and I give them major kudos for living with me the last nineteen years, but my sister and I have been raised completely differently for being three years apart. It's just mind boggling to me.

But hey, it happens right?

And to make it worse in my mind at least; One of my oldest friends has been a complete and utter jerk recently, and I have no interest in hanging out with her tomorrow like I'm supposed to. I actually just want to punch her like crazy. POW! Right in the face. But I can't to that. Really want to though.

Everything just seems obnoxiously complicated, in ways they should never be.